Sweet Friends = Sweet Therapy

So, there is only one friend that I know of that knows me better than anyone else except maybe Dave. Today was emotionally exhausting but full of blessings. It is ending on a blessing. A phone call from a good friend. Not only was it a phone call but it was a phone call that came in two parts. The first part was a quick how are you doing/small talk but she followed up after she put her kids to bed in an amazing 17 minutes! That told me I was a priority to her. That made me feel very special and loved.

Not only did we get to talk about the miscarriage which actually happened to be the shortest part probably of our conversation but I got to share with her my struggles at work, something that is so close to my heart. She passed along a reminder that she had been given. The people I work with, the majority of them are probably not Christians. They do not have a set of standards that they live by. With that said, they honestly don't know any better. They treat people the way the do because that is how they have been treated. Anyone that treats them differently might be a breath of fresh air for awhile but eventually that person becomes intimidating. They become somewhat scary because there is something different about them (them being me). Please don't get me wrong. I am not boastful at all about my relationship with Christ because the closer I get to Him the more I see that I need him and how I don't have a clue about him. There are times when I feel like a baby Christian still on milk. Thankfully, those times are fewer and farther between but it is because of His grace and patience with me. It is also because I want something different for myself and my family. I want Christ to be the center of my life. That trumps all pressures - as strong as they might be at times.

I shared with my friend that almost daily as I walk into work I picture God opening his hand to mine, taking my hand and walking into work with me. There have been so many times where I have been prompted to pray that the Holy Spirit would fill the aisles. It honestly feels a little weird for me to pray that prayer but it is what has popped into my head and what I feel the Holy Spirit has laid on my heart. Maybe no one else prays for these people. Maybe that is part of my work at COUNTRY Financial.

I must be honest, the emotional job is tough. There are many, many days where I am ready to throw in the towel. There are days where I catch myself behaving poorly just like the people I do not enjoy being around. I would trade my job in a heartbeat and honestly, not look back. God has me there for a reason for this season. I hope the season changes soon but this challenge has definitely brought me closer to Christ. For that I am very thankful.

I can now go to bed refreshed.  Thank you Jesus.