Seriously. That is the word that comes to mind when I think about my current situation at work. I am struggling with a co-worker that is just doing her job but it is starting to feel like bullying. And there is nothing I can do about it. So, my work is jeopardized because she is just doing her job.
Internal miscommunication. And to be honest, I would love for the agent to climb the anger ladder. I would love it! Not because I want bad to come to this person but because I feel that the area this person resides in gets away with anything and everything they want. They control the speed at which things happen. And I think that is rediculus. And if I say something to anyone really, I am just seen as a complainer. I don't think there is anything I can do to resolve this. And that is what is most frustrating.
So what is my plan going forward? To reduce my contact with this department as much as possible. Yep. And that feels like a copout. I mean really. Why should I have to do a dance around a department just because they won't play nice with others? And the problem, I feel people could easily start saying that about me. My confidence is waning. I do good work but I feel like I am starting to be pushed under a thumb and I don't like that. I don't want to be pushed around. That is not my nature. Well, it is my former nature but I am so trying to move forward.
Enter, God. Lord, what do I do about this situation? Do I apologize? but I haven't done anything wrong. Then again, neither did Jesus but he was killed. But he never apologized. So he knows how I feel. And knowing that, and trusting that he is in control of ALL situations, I need to let this go. I need to move forward. I need to be a team player. That means playing with the teammates on my team, not on other teams. Give me wisdom, Lord, as we move upstairs. Give me discernment. Give me a peace that surpasses all understanding. Help me stay out of the pot. I hate pot stirring and I feel like I am privy to too many people that like to stir the pot. I don't want to be seen as someone that does not play nicely with others. I need to give up. I need to let go and let God. I hate being hurt and misunderstood. It is a tough, tough world out there at COUNTRY, especially right now. People are scarred and it is every man for himself. Somewhat of a hostile environment. Lord, HELP!
