A Gentle Reminder

Do you ever wake up angry? I do. I did this morning. I was angry about my husband and the struggles he is going through. I wanted to do something but what? So, I got on my knees and poured out my heart to God asking him to make me clean on the inside. Throughout the morning God has dropped little hints in my lap of how much he loves me. I was looking for a verse to put on Will's album and came across this one, "He tends to his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young." Isaiah 40:11.

I think God wrote this verse just for me, just for today. I am part of his flock and I was struggling this morning. He holds me close to His heart. I am wrapped up in his arms. No matter how much I kick and scream Jesus is still holding me. He loves me unconditionally and wants me to share everything with him, my struggles and praises. He wants me to be honest. I was honest this morning. It felt a little ackward. Why should I be angry at the man I love so much? Dave is a gift that has been given to me. Yet, I saw him this morning as selfish and lazy. The struggle is that it might appear he is selfish and lazy on the outside but on the inside I know he is struggling with himself. He struggles with selfishness. He struggles with perfection that can be misconstrued at laziness. He listens to the lies and it keeps him sick.

Enter God. The God of the universe promises to carry me close to his heart but this verse is also true for Dave. God will hold him close, love on him and pull him from the pit of dispair. There is an awesome verse in the Book Breaking Free by Beth Moore that talks about why Christ came. It is in Isaiah. It says, "He has anointed me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives...to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of dispair and the garmet of praise in stead of mourning. " Isaiah 61:1-3.

Also, I heard on the radio a song this morning about how God puts people together. We are put together because we are a strong combo. Otherwise, we would not be together. Pride and resentment damage that relationship but God builds it back up. Thank you, Lord, for your mercy, grace and fingerprints on everyday. You are the ultimate encouragement.