Ever have those days where you just feel blah. People around you feel blah. The weather is blah. Blah....
I wish how people felt did not effect me but moods do. My husband's mood effects me. The people I work with effect me. Kind of gets me down.
So, what do I do? I went to counseling and we talked a little bit about this but the bottom line is that humans feed off of each other. When one person is down, everyone suffers a little bit. When one person is happy people feed off of that. My problem is that I think sometimes people are mad at me when I don't know what I have done wrong. I hate that!
So, time for some self talk. Getting back to the basics. First, I am a good person. I am loved by many and when I don't feel loved I need to go out and get a hug (usually from my hubby). I am a child of God and learning more about him daily. When I feel crummy it is usually because I have not given something completely up to him. Third, there is a lot of stressful things going on in my life right now. My hubby is depressed because he doesn't have a job, my mother-in-law is in the nursing home now because she can't take care of herself, my son is being a very picky eatter, my dog needs surgery, and people are grumpy at work. Grrr.... It is taking a toll on me.
I guess it is good that I can admit this stuff is bothering me. I have not always been able to do that. Usually I just stuff things deep inside. I don't let anyone know what is bothering me. I am trying to change that but it is tough. Tough but doable. I find that on blah days I really have to focus on the good that is going on around me. So here is a small list.
I have two legs to run and walk with
I have a job that provides for our family, most of the time
I have a new relationship beginning to blossom with my mom
I know where I am going when I die
I have lots of good friends that love us so much
I have a little boy that laughs and smiles daily, many times a day
I know what it means to love so much it hurts
I know I have a husband that is committed to me until the day I die
I know I am loved by God (seriously loved - he is crazy about me!)
I know sunny days will return
I love sunrises
I love reading good books
I love reading my Bible and learning more about the God I long to be more like
I love my family
I am so thankful for my physical health and that of my family
I love encouraging people
I love praying with people and for people
I love encouragement
I love overcoming challenges
I love to cry with people
I love to try new things
I love organizing events
I love snuggling with my dogs
I love snuggling with my hubby
I enjoy following the routines by FlyLady
I love scrapbooking with friends
I love putting things away (kind of crazy but I like putting things where they belong)
I love Starbucks Frappaccinos on a warm day
I love my dear friend that will read this
I love hot tea on cold days - warms me up on the inside
I love fellowshipping with others
I love eating dinner together with my family
I love worshipping with my family
I love the thought of going to heaven one day and singing at the top of my lungs with so many other believers
I love reading the gospels and the letters Paul wrote - they are so encouraging.
I love teaching Will how to talk (so cute and exciting)
I love taking care of my family
I love serving others
I love hot baths
I love candles that burn and give off a fresh fregrence
I love our Bible Study group
I love our first Bible Study group that set the standard for how a small group should function
I love cross stitching (would like to make a stocking for Will - already made one for Dave and Dave made one for me!)
I enjoy playing with legos
Kind of enjoyed this list!
Toodles for now.
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