And to top it all off, I left my Bible at work. I could really use that right now! Instead, I have daily devotionals from Eastview. Todays was what was life like before Christ. I am very pleased to report that the memories of what I was like before I truly accepted Christ in my life are faint. I love that! I love that I have a personal relationship with a God who has washed me whiter than snow and loves me for who I am. He loves me when I struggle. He loves me when I excel. He loves me when I am depressed or when I am anxious. He loves me all the time and he loves it when I come to him with my thoughts. It is like sitting down to have a conversation with my favorite person. Here is how it goes:
Setting: An open porch overlooking a garden with spring flowers always in bloom, rocking chairs and ice cold lemonade. The steps are on the side. As soon as I walk up God stands up opens his arms, plants a huge smile on his face and welcomes me onto the porch. He is thrilled to see me and so thankful that I stopped by for this unexpected visit.
God: Em'ly. So good to see how. Please join me. Can I get you some lemonade?
Em'ly: Thank you. I would love some. How are you Lord?
God: I am better now that you are here. I have been sitting all day admiring the beauty of this yard and no one to share it with. It isn't that uncommon. I made the humans and they are always BUSY. How I wish they would slow down and have a drink with me.
Em'ly: I have missed you. Coming to visit with you is like coming to visit with an old friend only better. You love me just as I am and to be honest, I am a broken person. I struggle. I need your advise.
God: Shoot. What is going through your beautiful mind?
Em'ly: I am struggling right now with routine vs. change. I want to be a person that accepts change and adapts accordingly. How do I do that?
God: What are you so afraid of? Are you in a constant state of fear or just periodically? Tell me a little bit more.
Em'ly: When my routine is changed I experience this problem. For instance, right now I am tied up with a bum foot and really not suppose to use it much. I am on the couch most of the time. Ironically, if I was going to work like normal and came home I might end up on the couch for a good chunk of time but because I am forced to I struggle with it. I fear I won't have anything to do? And then reality kicks in and I say, Seriously? Nothing to do? How about organizing pictures and scrapbooking or reading a book or doing a puzzle. Don't waste your time off worrying about what you might not do because then you won't have any time left!
God: Hum.... I see. Let me ask you a question. Who is in charge of all things?
Em'ly: You
God: It is very, very possible that I have a specific plan and reason for your situation. I might be teaching you something very valuable. Look for that lesson and when you get nervous, just pray. I am only a step away and my door is always open to you.
Em'ly: Why is it so easy when you say it and it makes so much sense but in my feeble mind I struggle? Your word trumps all. THANK GOODNESS!
And we could go on and on. This is what my relationship with Christ is like. It is personal and real. It is gentle. He doesn't put me down or ask me why I think I certain way. He listens and inserts his wisdom. Ironically, I don't find myself questioning it once I have clarity. We move forward together.
Now why don't I do this with everything that comes across my lap!
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